My sister left yesterday morning to go back to Germany, my brother left Wednsday, things have been so quiet since. I find myself missing them already. I knew change was on the horizon. I knew the end of another chapter of my life would end, and them coming would make the era of a new beginning. The last three weeks came and went so fast. I didn't think our wedding would happen, but it did, on Tuesday. So much, so quick and then they are gone.
I don't really know how I feel. I'm sad because they are gone, but I know more change is coming. I know that a new beginning is here, but at the moment, I'm on this new path, kind of just standing here wondering where it will take us. I don't want to say this is a crossroads, because there is only one path before me. I feel confident, and something within me knows something great is about to happen. I feel peace for the first time in a long time, and I feel more complete. I know within my heart what I must do, what I will be doing. I see it before me.
I've always wanted to be an author. I have decided this morning to go back to writing. I have also decided to go back to doing readings. For the longest time I have felt numb, but the last two days the spiritual energy has been so strong. I can't ignore it. I know I must write again. I know I must do readings again. I know where I left off at the end of last month, isn't the path I am supposed to be on. I wish I had more time before going back to work. I'm afraid things will go back to where they were. They are not meant to,though, I know this.
Yesterday morning, when my sister and her family left, I felt a void within. It felt empty. I still feel it today, but it made things clearer for me. For many years I have been afraid. I'm not afraid anymore. That is what changed. That knowing within. I know what I must do and I know that I will succeed. These things within, I couldn't see it before, but somehow I have gained clarity when they left. To focus on the important things in life. To remember the soul. Yesterday I cried when she left. I didn't want to feel it, but I felt it and when I did, a wall came down. I know now they were meant to come. I still don't know the reason, not all of it, but I knew it would be life changing. It is already starting with my brother and I. Making us see things we could not really see before.
Today I am switching my alter out. I want to create a sacred space that is actually sacred. I haven't felt connected to my alter since we moved to Arizona. I knew it was a loaner until I got my old one back, so today I am going to set it back up again. We have had so much thrown at us the last few months, but something changed within me this last week on a really huge scale. That is why I know the path before me is already set. There is no going back now because within my soul I already made the choice.
I don't really know how I feel. I'm sad because they are gone, but I know more change is coming. I know that a new beginning is here, but at the moment, I'm on this new path, kind of just standing here wondering where it will take us. I don't want to say this is a crossroads, because there is only one path before me. I feel confident, and something within me knows something great is about to happen. I feel peace for the first time in a long time, and I feel more complete. I know within my heart what I must do, what I will be doing. I see it before me.
I've always wanted to be an author. I have decided this morning to go back to writing. I have also decided to go back to doing readings. For the longest time I have felt numb, but the last two days the spiritual energy has been so strong. I can't ignore it. I know I must write again. I know I must do readings again. I know where I left off at the end of last month, isn't the path I am supposed to be on. I wish I had more time before going back to work. I'm afraid things will go back to where they were. They are not meant to,though, I know this.
Yesterday morning, when my sister and her family left, I felt a void within. It felt empty. I still feel it today, but it made things clearer for me. For many years I have been afraid. I'm not afraid anymore. That is what changed. That knowing within. I know what I must do and I know that I will succeed. These things within, I couldn't see it before, but somehow I have gained clarity when they left. To focus on the important things in life. To remember the soul. Yesterday I cried when she left. I didn't want to feel it, but I felt it and when I did, a wall came down. I know now they were meant to come. I still don't know the reason, not all of it, but I knew it would be life changing. It is already starting with my brother and I. Making us see things we could not really see before.
Today I am switching my alter out. I want to create a sacred space that is actually sacred. I haven't felt connected to my alter since we moved to Arizona. I knew it was a loaner until I got my old one back, so today I am going to set it back up again. We have had so much thrown at us the last few months, but something changed within me this last week on a really huge scale. That is why I know the path before me is already set. There is no going back now because within my soul I already made the choice.
