I know that we often go through hard times and often it is because there is a lesson to be learned, but somehow that excuse just doesn't cut it. True understanding must come from within, but the path of spiritual knowledge doesn't pay the bills. The balance between the physical and spiritual are often blurred. Mankind had evolved so much, I often wonder why we left simplicity behind. People used to take care of one another, now it's a free for all.
The greatest gifts are always free, but society has a way of robbing us from even that. Even mother nature has a price tag now a days. God always seems to provide one way or the other,it will be interesting to see how it will e done this month. The ship is sinking quickly and I have no idea how I'm going to keep it afloat. All I know is that today I was presented with a choice, do I finally put away my boxing gloves and conform to the rest of the world, or do I hold on to what is left of my soul and do what I feel is right and just, even if it means my family will sink? I can't...no, I won't compromise my integrity, I won't bow down and submit to the things I despise, I will not sell my soul for easy money. I do not judge those who can do this, but for me, my soul dies even considering it. But we can't loose everything either, for the first time in many years, I am once again relying solely on faith.
Emotionally, I'm a wreck. I'm always so tired. This whole situation has taken a toll on me and I am not recovering as quickly as I did in the past. I normally allow myself the release to merely sink into the abyss and then climb back out again but that is a pleasure I can't afford to indulge in this time. Everyone needs me to e strong once again. It's hard when you feel so weak. I'm thinking my " away with the blues" spell may work.
It's funny because my husband keeps saying the reason why we are so poor all the time is because we are so pure. We always do what we feel is right inside and never compromise that, but after solidifying my decision right now, there is a light within my soul and I know that I am on the right path for me,for us. The path less taken is always a difficult road to walk, but the riches that come with it, not even money can buy. The only way to e true to our God,gods, is to be true to ourselves.
Even though the road is dark, there is a light within that will always shine because I am the keeper of this light and I know the importance of not allowing it to go out. This light I keep close to my heart always. It is what guides my path and those who choose to follow. It is for all who choose to accept. It breathes life, it is life, it is the soul, the core of who we are.
I'm being called into a circle now. Take this with you are leave it be. May the blessings of the Divine e upon you.
The greatest gifts are always free, but society has a way of robbing us from even that. Even mother nature has a price tag now a days. God always seems to provide one way or the other,it will be interesting to see how it will e done this month. The ship is sinking quickly and I have no idea how I'm going to keep it afloat. All I know is that today I was presented with a choice, do I finally put away my boxing gloves and conform to the rest of the world, or do I hold on to what is left of my soul and do what I feel is right and just, even if it means my family will sink? I can't...no, I won't compromise my integrity, I won't bow down and submit to the things I despise, I will not sell my soul for easy money. I do not judge those who can do this, but for me, my soul dies even considering it. But we can't loose everything either, for the first time in many years, I am once again relying solely on faith.
Emotionally, I'm a wreck. I'm always so tired. This whole situation has taken a toll on me and I am not recovering as quickly as I did in the past. I normally allow myself the release to merely sink into the abyss and then climb back out again but that is a pleasure I can't afford to indulge in this time. Everyone needs me to e strong once again. It's hard when you feel so weak. I'm thinking my " away with the blues" spell may work.
It's funny because my husband keeps saying the reason why we are so poor all the time is because we are so pure. We always do what we feel is right inside and never compromise that, but after solidifying my decision right now, there is a light within my soul and I know that I am on the right path for me,for us. The path less taken is always a difficult road to walk, but the riches that come with it, not even money can buy. The only way to e true to our God,gods, is to be true to ourselves.
Even though the road is dark, there is a light within that will always shine because I am the keeper of this light and I know the importance of not allowing it to go out. This light I keep close to my heart always. It is what guides my path and those who choose to follow. It is for all who choose to accept. It breathes life, it is life, it is the soul, the core of who we are.
I'm being called into a circle now. Take this with you are leave it be. May the blessings of the Divine e upon you.
